Can I just take a moment to
my deep utter hatred for myself?
God help the people who are unfortunate enough to be acquainted with me. I wouldn't wish me on anybody. Jesus Christ I'm a mess.
I'm not a very good writer, so you guys aren't gonna get much. Not really. I just... I need a break from myself.
I was just gonna go watch Master Chef to try and forget my problems, but that just made me more upset because it's making me remember that I can't even fucking deal with my own problems. I just hide from them until they go away and I figure it's safe to come back out. I'm still hiding from past shit i've done.
On a related note, I can't believe I had the audacity to think for a second that someone could return my feelings when I can't stand myself. Any time someone before has liked me I always found something wrong with them and blamed that. And god I'm such an asshole about it.
What am I even doing?
I'm just gonna go watch people get yelled at by chefs for not being good enough and then go take a nap. I need to hide.
It's fucking hard to hide from yourself.