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December 31, 2012


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I'm really conflicted guys... (vent)

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 31, 2012, 4:17 PM
This has been a problem I have been battling with myself over but it is presenting itself stronger than ever now for reasons.
After a bad experience I had, I have always been afraid of being judged, and I try to give a good impression whenever I can, I'm just terrified of labels, and I guess that is part of my social anxiety, but I'm having an issue with my fursona.
It wasn't as bad when I was just entertaining the warriors fandom, where a fursona is just a common thing, and nobody really thinks twice about it ecapt for the occasional person throwing the word furfag around.
I'm not a furry, and I don't want to be called one. Not that there is anything wrong with being a furry, but it isn't who I am. The whole reason I had a firsona was because all of my friends did, and I want to animate videos with them, but how strange would it be to see a video full of cats and dogs and then there is a person in the corner?
And like I said, in the Warriors fandom it is a common thing, but I'm uploading the casting call for Pokemon mystery dungeon tomorrow, and I'll be putting myself out to a huge new audience, considering Pokemon is one of the most recognized things possibly in the history of ever, and then I would be afraid to make personal videos because suddenly I would have people who weren't used to fursona videos and then I would spiral back down into my pit of being scared and feeling judged negatively and I'm horrible for it but this is a real fear of mine, being judged.
I've been considering keeping my fursona, and what I would do is start drawing myself as a person like I do in real life, and I would use my pokesona for videos with my friends who have fursonas. You haven't seen her, but my pokesona is a Vulpix (I know a lot of you complain about the complexity of my fursonas design, so a Vulpix would be much easier, no?
And I would draw my fursona every now and then, but my human self and pokesona would be my main... things...

I dunno guys. How many of you would hate me if I did this?

  • Mood: Awestruck
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  • Watching: To be
  • Playing: Given
  • Eating: The finest
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Darksilvercody Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Don't worry Rea, and don't be afraid of change. If you want to change ANYTHING; you have the right to do it. I'm not going to hate you for changing and i'm sure a lot of other people won't either.
I say more power to you; full steam ahead! and always remember. Life is all about change. Don't be afraid of what other people might think, and never; even for a second, think that you can't do something just because someone said you can't. I believe in you and a whole ton of people do too!

we've got your back.
Spoofdty Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
who could hate a person like you? i know i wouldn't, 'cause you're a really good animator!!! :iconhappymeowplz:
m-e-o-w-l-a-c-e Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
....after a bad experience you had
im assuming thats me bUT!!!

go ahead and do whatever you're gonna do
nobody has a say in it.

...Besides there are tons of pokemon-personas and tons of pokesonas and holy crap.
SkittyStrawberries Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2013  Student Filmographer
No it wasnt you. It was what caused my little stage in which you didnt like my art.
m-e-o-w-l-a-c-e Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
...Oh. XD;
mywolfwarrior Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2013  Student Digital Artist
NO! No sadness Rea. I honestly don't care if you change what you do as long as you love to do it. :3 All those people who judge you are only doing it because they probably don't understand you or don't take the time to see who you are. This is from all your watchers: We love you for you no matter what So don't worry about change because it won't affect how awesome you are and how mush we all love you ^w^
BloodstarSpyro88 Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
No! Don't change your fursona! I love it! ...but nobody evarrrr listens to me. :iconapplejackshrugplz: Plus this really isn't my place to tell you what or what not to do, even if you're asking. Do what you want, Rea. You'll always be awesome though, no matter what!
Owl-Feather Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2013  Student General Artist
*pats you on the head*

Hey, don't worry :meow: TBH, I haven't talked to you much in a long time, or been following the stuff you've been doing lately ^^' But I have no reason to judge you or think negatively about you. Furry? That's something you decide yourself what you want to be. If you aren't one, then you aren't. I like to draw anthros and neopets and stuff, but I don't consider myself one at all. (I don't have anything against furries in general either, though).

So, don't let it bother you ^_^ Do what you want to do. I certainly hope no one's been bothering you about this, and if they are I'd like to have a word with them >:3
Feline-Kat Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It's your life, you can do whatever you want <3
TheVampiresRose Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2013
honestly its all your choice and trust me I know how you feel about the how being judged thing since I have the same problem :/

but heres my advice do what makes YOU happy dont worry about everyone else or you're never going to be happy in life trust me its not worth trying to please everyone just try and please yourself and remember all those friends you have that like you for YOU :)
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