Journal Entry:
Mon Dec 31, 2012, 4:17 PM
This has been a problem I have been battling with myself over but it is presenting itself stronger than ever now for reasons.
After a bad experience I had, I have always been afraid of being judged, and I try to give a good impression whenever I can, I'm just terrified of labels, and I guess that is part of my social anxiety, but I'm having an issue with my fursona.
It wasn't as bad when I was just entertaining the warriors fandom, where a fursona is just a common thing, and nobody really thinks twice about it ecapt for the occasional person throwing the word furfag around.
I'm not a furry, and I don't want to be called one. Not that there is anything wrong with being a furry, but it isn't who I am. The whole reason I had a firsona was because all of my friends did, and I want to animate videos with them, but how strange would it be to see a video full of cats and dogs and then there is a person in the corner?
And like I said, in the Warriors fandom it is a common thing, but I'm uploading the casting call for Pokemon mystery dungeon tomorrow, and I'll be putting myself out to a huge new audience, considering Pokemon is one of the most recognized things possibly in the history of ever, and then I would be afraid to make personal videos because suddenly I would have people who weren't used to fursona videos and then I would spiral back down into my pit of being scared and feeling judged negatively and I'm horrible for it but this is a real fear of mine, being judged.
I've been considering keeping my fursona, and what I would do is start drawing myself as a person like I do in real life, and I would use my pokesona for videos with my friends who have fursonas. You haven't seen her, but my pokesona is a Vulpix (I know a lot of you complain about the complexity of my fursonas design, so a Vulpix would be much easier, no?
And I would draw my fursona every now and then, but my human self and pokesona would be my main... things...
I dunno guys. How many of you would hate me if I did this?
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Listening to: Wyeth
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Reading: Needs
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Watching: To be
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Playing: Given
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Eating: The finest
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Drinking: Coffee
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I say more power to you; full steam ahead! and always remember. Life is all about change. Don't be afraid of what other people might think, and never; even for a second, think that you can't do something just because someone said you can't. I believe in you and a whole ton of people do too!
GO GET 'EM!
we've got your back.
im assuming thats me bUT!!!
go ahead and do whatever you're gonna do
nobody has a say in it.
...Besides there are tons of pokemon-personas and tons of pokesonas and holy crap.
Hey, don't worry
So, don't let it bother you ^_^ Do what you want to do. I certainly hope no one's been bothering you about this, and if they are I'd like to have a word with them >:3
but heres my advice do what makes YOU happy dont worry about everyone else or you're never going to be happy in life trust me its not worth trying to please everyone just try and please yourself and remember all those friends you have that like you for YOU